The time of mine

Left 5 hrs, last paper goin 2 start.

The tone of ending this sem is clearly hear.

Finally, I am completing my year one in TARC.

Time gone quite fast,

di da di da, one second one minute one hour one day gone.

What I had wasted one year ago never and not going to look back,

I will n I promise I'm not going to go back what the year I had wasted.


PAST

Life is dark,

playing sound keep arising,

the wish stay outside instead of going home is strong

"Home"?What is home?

Sad, alone, breathless, tears, fears

Complaint n argument is on n on,

keep coming out from my mouth.

What I have get?

Hate from family, sympathy from others.

Feel weaker n weaker,

"I wanna run away"~


The sound of come back is calling.

WHERE? WHERE THE SOUND CAME FROM?

WHO? WHO IS GOING TO LEAD ME?



NOW

New air, new life

Thank you, God!

Fransica

My name Fransica is given by my mother when I was born.
Most people prefer to pronoun my name as Fransisca.
But I didn't care how it pronoun cz Im always pronoun it in the way.
Even though I told my FOM lecturer, my name is Fransica, not Francisca.
He still pronoun it wrong.(never mind, he won't teach me again.)

From the past, I let other pronoun what they think n I do follow their pronunciation.
But from now on, not anymore.
Fransisca will not exist,it is a name that has a thought in herself but don't know how to express it.
Fransica will be name, a name about true daring n brave to take challenges.

~My name is Fransica~

miss you

If time could turn back,

I will hold the chance,

I will never let you disappear.

Sometimes, I'm still thinking of you.

Maybe my coldness let you stop to come to me.

But I really miss you.

Hopefully you r fine.

myself

I am myself, I am nobody.

I am one of the creation of god,

love to bring fun to everyone.

My friends say my words always "zha dou" them.

Actually I don't think so, I think quite logic in my sense.

But whatever la as long as they think that is fun,

it is ok for me being like that.

Yesterday, got cell group in ke liang house.

I know recently I speak quite a lot,

a lot of thing to share.

On the other hand, I realize I should change my speaking.

It is quite rude indeed, what I wanna share with them,

actually I have no idea what I'm talking about.

I don't know how to express my thinking to others,

I admit I'm quite weak in expressing idea.

That is sth in my mind but I don't know how to speak it out.

That is why now I'm learning listen to others rather than talk a lot of rubbish.

Talent? My talent?

What is my talent?

Design hair style?singing?or sth else?

I still not very sure about dat but I think I will find it out later.

Sometimes I feel very impress abt myself, sometimes I hate myself.

But I know there are something big in me that God put inside,

I need to explore it.

let go

I'm so silly...

cried for a small matter n don't wish 2 let go it...

Luckily, I got You, God.

Taught me 2 put my hand away.

Although the result is not I wished but actually this result is better than what I wished.

God, thank you~

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?.

沉静

突然之间，我失去了语言能力。

我开始沉静了，

不知是否是上一次的吵架，

我开始注意了自己的言语.

"踩”人也失去了那种爽感。

也许在他们面前保持沉静是最好的，

收回我的疯颠，

让自己不会再伤。

但是，这种情况是暂时的，

我不会让自己沉默太久。

上帝，你的祝福再次的让我看见。

看见了身边朋友的成长，

真为他们感到开心。

大家，加油噢！

Dad, I love you~

I cried bcz I love my dad. I don’t want to lose him at the moment.That thinking suddenly appear in my mind

when a sister in my church telling what God have done to her n her husband life. God has brought her husband

away from her n his children. He is in the heaven now. God, pls bless my dad indeed. I love him very much. I

know I have done many things that hurt him. I blamed him what he had done to us. I’m sorry, dad! God, pls

don’t take him away from us. Although he is not perfect, he is a good father.

P/S: Thx the sister for sharing the story with us. That made me realize I love my dad very much. Thx God for refreshing me everyday~